It is my last day in Vienna... :( I am so sad to be leaving tonight. Well, tomorrow, but basically tonight. I can't wait to go get all my pictures printed though, its been such a great trip. Last night we had this big farewell dinner with free wine (which ultimately turned out to be both good and bad, I will have more details later)

So Europe is great. Other than the weird keyboard layouts, that is. I have tons to update but I just felt the need to share this really quick.

Only two more days in Vienna and then I go back. :( Sad. I want to stay here forever.

EEPP Packing is EATING MY SOUL.

Here's what I've got planned to take.

My denim skirt, which is knee length. Got to be proper and whatnot.
Two pairs of Bermudas; one navy-ish and one khaki.
Two pairs of regular jeans, although one will be worn on the plane.
One pair of grey-ish capris. They have pinstripes.
One pair of nice black pants.
Possibly my khakis.

5 tshirts? A couple dressy shirts, my BSB band shirt and white pants. Maybe 5 or so pairs of socks? A pair of tennis shoes, probably three pairs of flip flops (since they take up no space and are light) and my black high heels in case of needing to look nice. And maybe a pair of skimmers too, the cute pink champion ones. With some bandaids, since I think I got blisters the last time I wore them for a long period of time.

One lightweight sweater, one heavier weight fleece. And maybe my outer coat thing in case of rain, if I can fit it comfortably in the suitcase.

I just don't think I'll have time to do laundry or anything like that, so I think if I bring this stuff I should be good. And I think it should all fit in my suitcase. We shall see.

Ugh I wish I didn't have to go to work so I could just finish packing.

THIS TIME ON MONDAY I'LL BE AT DULLES. WAITIN FOR MY PLAAANE.

So excited.

I think its kind of sad that I have next to nothing packed, worked 8 hours tonight and will work about twenty in the next two days, its 2:30 am and I'm sitting here watching America's Best Dance Crew like its my job.

I mean, I just miss So You Think You Can Dance?. I don't think its online. :(

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Seriously, what. the. fuck. There are fangirls for Obama/Clinton? As in, SHIPPERS. Both Obama and Clinton are married and are senators, not characters in some novel for people to distort and mess around with. Can't they run together withOUT shipper icons? Can't a woman run for office without people pairing her up with other candidates EVEN THOUGH SHE'S MARRIED.

It just seems so infinitely stupid that I am tempted to comment on the entry and say how stupid I find it.

I am so excited for this movie.

I am at such a low point right now. Its gotten super hot again, Neil still hasn't gotten the air fixed or living room furniture or the dishwasher fixed, and now Sergei (my hamster) seems to be getting sick from the heat. Well, thats the only thing I can think of, but who knows. He just lays on top of his little woven home all day sleeping kind of, but when I came home last night (which was when my room is at its coolest) he was running on his wheel again. I have to think that this 90+ degree heat and super high humidity is bad for him, and I have no friends that will/can take him in. Jeannette offered but she has cats and even though people are like "well the cats can't open the cage," they still could freak him out. I'm considering driving him home for the rest of the summer but that is a $100 round trip. On top of that I'm worried about a bunch of other random things and I just...ugh. I keep having my anxiety attacks. I don't know if I'm going to stay here, to be honest. I have no idea what I want to do anymore, or if I can make it through a semester without having a breakdown, and the constant depression is just a lot for me to handle. I really think I might move home at the end of the summer and take some time off to gather myself. I am going to talk to someone about transferring as well. I've just gone through a lot recently and I don't think I have any sort of faith in myself anymore.

I hate being such a downer all the time in this journal. But with my friends, I don't have anyone I can talk to about this. I just put on a relatively positive face and try to pretend that I'm fine, but I'm not. I'm alone, I live alone, my friends don't always even make the effort to include me, and I just feel...hopeless, a lot of the time. And I think moving home and finding a job or two to occupy myself and build up some cash reserves might be the way to go, at this point. Because I can't keep floundering the way I am. I am just sinking further and further each time.

I saw The Fall this past Thursday and for anyone that loves Pushing Daisies, GO SEE IT.

LEE PACE IS IN IT.

I didn't put two and two together until he was on the screen.

And it was honestly one of the most beautiful movies I've ever seen. Ever.

Because I am always super bored at 2 in the morning.

Step 1: Put your iTunes on shuffle.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 50 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 3: Bold out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 4: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING

( This took much longer than I thought it would since I can't understand some people's words when they sing. )

Maybe I'll post this on facebook too.

*Baby Denali is now 3 months! She's getting so big (of course, I last saw her when she was only six days old). This is her with Grandma Syl at Kevin's grad party this past Saturday.

( More Denali and Graduation and friend pictures below the cut )

I have so many more pictures but Facebook is being stupid and not letting me upload, which is why I'm posting these here for right now. I just feel the need to share pictures sometimes.